Collar's Poetry

CollarGirl · OMGJONASSISTERS

Collar's Poetry

CollarGirl · OMGJONASSISTERS

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You'll Never See
In the beginning
All is dreamy
Nothing mangled, nothing steamy
Because you loved me
Or so I thought
A fib that was much too easily bought

For if you loved me
Or if I meant
What you said I did before the torment
Then it wouldnt have mattered
To me or to you
And opinions would be something we could quickly subdue

In the middle
Its all too quiet
But my hearts guilty of causing the riot
Because you became hers
As the months scuttled by
A fact I wish that I could deny

I know you like her
But under the surface
Youre wondering if shes really all worth it
Because love for the one
You truly adore
Is not found in her, but your crush before

In the end
Its your poor loss
Another stab, another toss
Of questions
But youll never see
What would have happened if youd chosen me.

Irreplacable
The painful jealousy inside me has never been so throbbing
And his actions towards her can still leave me sobbing
Cringing at every sparkle in the eye
Every discrete, nervous blush from the girl or the guy
Leaves me broken into pieces that are too small to see
Being consumed by the waking monster within me

I didn't think I could take any more affection
Staring at my tender eyes in my lonely reflection
Seeing them walking through the halls hand in hand
Is an event too often that I can barely stand
The envious, pale tears drip in private

Now that you're a couple, I don't want to face it
All the phrases we exchanged, I just want to erase it
And alone in my room, devoured by thoughts
Discouraging ones that leave me distraught
Quite firmly, I don't approve

Grazing from the sidelines, it takes self control
To avoid myself from erupting because interrupting's my goal
They're chortling joyfully, the new relationship is perfect
I sure hope so because he is definitely not worth it
But my adoration for him cannot be tamed

And she can hold him all she wants
Make the kisses wetter
But I know deep inside
He's wondering why she isn't better.

Young Love

Glancing secretly at him
Catching his gaze every now and then
Blushing
Quickly turning away
Longing
Wanting

His tender eyes full of laughter
Cant stop gazing, cant stop adoring
Giggling
Softly craving love
Longing
Wanting

He flips his hair out of his eyes
My heart pounds fiercely
Wondering
Is he good for me?
Longing
Wanting

His gentle stare I feel
I get a fast glimpse of his gaze
Fretting
Do I look alright?
Longing
Wanting
Trusting fate to do its best
Hoping
Pleading
Oh, young love

Hurt

So, so dark
That cold remark.
Tearing, fearing, forever loneliness.
I cannot cope with the world of black,
An after-attack.
The constant mope,
The ring of his voice,
The rumble, the tingle,
Only hope.

Slightly saddened, I sit up.
The slope is as steep as his trust.
That liar, I sigh.
Though quite forlorn, I couldve sworn,
It was never much more.
Forgotten, faded,
Only hope.

The fear is heavy,
The vulnerable mope,
Cannot be trusted, cannot cope.
Forbidden fright chills my bones.
He didnt care, he didnt, nope.
His words were careful.
Only hope.

Stripped to the end,
The end of my rope,
Clutching my knees,
I cannot cope.
Tearing, fearing,
Gloomy memories.
The hope has faded.
No more hope.

-- Edited by CollarGirl at 20:13, 2008-11-07

CollarGirl · OMGJONASSISTERS

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CollarGirl · OMGJONASSISTERS

Here's a lot more. Only read the ones you wnat to. ^^

Scars
The taste is bitter and lonely on my tongue
Having to experience such pain so young
And while my hearts throbbing
Sobbing, sobbing

Was it a lie, I doubt it
Either way I hope hes happy about it
I thought I was being clever and cunning
Running, running

Away from the hurt
Away from the sting
Away from every phrase, touch or thing
Aching, aching

Another scar on my punctured heart
Too many wounds from the start
But God is breathing down my neck
Healing, healing

And the marks of hurt begin to fade
This feeling Id never trade
I have a new heart with a new soul
Getting over you is my goal
And through it all
Through the piercing thorn
My living healers are there when I am torn
Comforting, consoling
My pain is rolling
Away
In replace is confidence
This scratch will not stay

Comparisons

Slide that d*mn smile off your face
It may be meant for her,
but I'm the one noting your actions.

Let me admire the grin you flash her
She may enjoy it,
but I'm addicted to it.

Allow me to slip my hand in yours
Her eyes may be shiny,
but mine are glowing.

Force my lips against your own
She may like you,
but I love you.

Confessions

I feel the burning stares against my face
Nervousness boiling from my cheeks from the taste
Hoping Im pretty enough to deserve your gaze
Lost in this impossible phase

Provide me directions to the pit of your stubborn heart
Sparingly cracking, shattering apart
I read your actions, you love me too
So why dont you do whats best for you?

I suppose I ought to vanish, just walk away
Youre not going to hurt me, not today
But its too late, I sob alone
Too many chances Ive already blown

I dont deserve you; youre the last thing I desire
But when it comes to necessities, you are the fire
The taunting flames licking me closer with ease
Then snapping me away, shoving me to my knees

But youll never drift past the immature side
Sacrificing popularity and taking me as your bride
Although well never go further, one fact will always remain
You are my fire, and I am your rain

I'm Afraid You're Still Golden, But That's Beside the Point
(Some people on this forum will most likely enjoy this poem the most)

Your thoughts are fading, are you going to admit
But either way its not like you actually give a sh*t
Confusion of seeking for more affection when youve already got the very best
Right at your slippery fingertips

D*mn right, dont move on
Whats it worth because shes already gone
Crumbling to a conniving, rotten jewel but thats beside the page weve flipped to
Page thirty three, chapter 'You're Not My Type But Who's Counting?'

And well, what to say
Memories and fondness thrown away
Sweetie, Im afraid youve d*mned me to a beyond forever circle of h*ll
Like Ive got a choice between you and the groom

Pulsing hearts and thumping heads
Too much for one day, it sucks me dead
I apologize for this uncertainty but trying to sort through you and sh*t
Should definitely catch me more money then I'll actually get

So bye, like I care
If it wasnt the character, it was the level of risk you were willing to prepare
Despite your golden smile and intense eyes- I can't think this way, it'll reveal my disguise
Pack your charisma and leave your disappointed girl behind

Another Step Forward

Devoured without chewing
By the foggy memories

Reminiscing the incidents,
Pressing replay continually

Wishing the taste would last forever
My heart burns with admiration

The genuine, lovable grin
Never escaping my mind

Your eyes would never fib
Directly to my face

I hope youre just as cursed as I am
A spell cast that prohibits any thoughts irrelevant of me

Decoding your actions while juggling my emotions
Has never been easier

Today we are friends
Tomorrow something greater

-- Edited by CollarGirl at 19:28, 2009-01-05

CollarGirl · OMGJONASSISTERS

Simplicity

It couldnt have been simpler, a stupid girl and a stubborn guy
The one with the denim skirt made a decision
The one wearing the ineffective belt missing golden opportunities

And the question gnawing at my heart is hollowing
Do you ever miss the future?
Forcing myself to build up confidence Im not ready to face

And just when Im feeling comfortable
Courageous and weightless above the world
My strings of trust snap like brittle candy

Falling is difficult as you flicker through my mind
The tears from my confused eyes descend as freely as my body
The position is hard to tackle

I wish I could land softly in your supportive arms
The simple touch awakening our spirits
And with connected eyes, the reality is visible

But as I glare at the murky sky
Aching against the bone-breaking ground
Realization of your worthless absence has never been crueler

As your beautiful image begins to fade away
The thought is merely heartbreaking
It couldnt have been simpler, a stupid girl and a stubborn guy
The uncertainty leaking from your lies
Simplicity
Thats all it came down to

Drowning

Im terribly sorry that this is all I have to offer
And for becoming tangled in this upsetting knot
All I ever wanted was your love
But youre clearly so consumed by your ego that you forgot
Even after all the affection and romance I sought
I only desired
I only thought
It would all work out in the end
I tried so hard

Facing reality is a tough trend
Happily ever after is a hardcore lie
Fixing my wings is not enough to make me fly
Teen down
Flailing, frustrated
But let her rest, this is her moment
Leave her in distress
Her own agreement, her own fate
This is only an argument with herself
Please, just wait
Wait

It can be difficult to view this girls pain
Her heart thumping with a gash as deep as the waters shes trying to wade out of
Getting sucked back in with every stroke
Until she lets herself drown
And choking on waves, gasping for breath
She knows the decision is get over him or suffer her emotional death
Her legs kick
She starts to swim
But its still clear how much agony shes in
Her pale tears dripping into the ocean
Her sobs are horribly echoing
And swimming away from him
Is simply heartbreaking
She tried

She had the chance
But he refused
So close to her dream
But let the boy choose
His decision is terrible
But he wanted to lose
Because Im generous, Ill split the blame
Half and half is my farthest game
My daydreams smashed to the ground
You let me break bones
Why is your image so captivating even as Im swimming away?
Im devoured
Im thrashing
Ive still got a chance
No sweetie, stay out of this,
Youre too stupid to advance
Im sorry I love you
And that you love me too
But my heart cant take it
Your apologys overdue
But I tried

Ill go with your plans
Ill swim
No sweat
Just as long as you also get wet
Proof shown by the back-stroking brunette
The vibrant violet on her bikini
I hope you soak up the regret
And all I can say is
I tried

Maybe too hard, but you didnt deserve less
You mean a lot to me
But you didnt confess
So I have to be strong
Reminisce me after Im gone
Please remember me from all the permanent graffiti
Remember our moments
Remember me, sweetie
And floating to shore, I still cry
I still mutter, sputter,
"Baby, I tried."

Sanity

I cant take another golden smile, choose her instead
Come on sweetie; please just empty out my head
Packed to the rim with your unrestricted fibs
Slipping out of this choking collar thats strapped to the leash in your fist

Youre a stubborn, ignorant, horribly handsome award
But the requirements youre charging, I just cant afford
The tears that rip down my cheeks show my untamable affection
Your flaws are what make you disgustingly perfect

The unique echoes of my screams I cant resubmit
They are only audible to me but I dont really give a ****
It better look like I dont care about what the hell goes on
Because hiding the truth is almost impossible for this stupid girl

Come to your senses
But wait, wait
Will this action soak up instant regret or fate?
Wondering whether to accept the gemstone or not

Its unbearably terrifying to make up my mind
But it has to be done eventually over time
And with a deep gaze into your sparkling eyes, your loyalty somehow shines through
The way you smile so naturally at me
Your eyes gleaming
Your voice tender
I come to my senses