Your not cursed, your just meat to take care of these animals. your better than other people to help these animals, thats why you end up with them. I personally think giving her away wouldn't help her. It's too much change for her age if you gave her away. I have a kidney disease and a LOT of other health problems, and my mom doesnt give me to someone that she thinks could take care of me better. I would feel awful, and it would be a big change. That's just what I think though. After all, if you gave her away, she'd be a old cat with diabetes which can be painful, she needs shots for her health, and then shed have to get used to stragers, a strange house, strage things in the house, strange food bowls..